Meta-analysis of Game

Video game is the bane of humanity. Hundreds and thousands hours wasted for a pointless end. You get absolutely nothing after you finish that game. I bet if the countless hours spend playing video game is used for more beneficial pursuit, like....... I don't know... cure for cancer, solving world hunger, new clean energy, making Keough rich, whatever.

Instead, all the collective force of human mind is poured into the abyss we call video game.( In fact we even pour our money into it sometimes)

The addiction is real, don't ask me how to quit, I'm just your averagely handsome-Malaysian-blogger. What do I know. I don't even own a car.

We crave the sense of quasi-achievement , that's why we come back to that game again and again. WE WANT TO FEEL WE ACHIEVE SOMETHING, thus we are the gullible victim of addiction of success,lure by promise of victories provided through the game. We feel the need to have purpose in life. We feel the need to have our life mean something and game provided this generously.

However, does anything in our life have meaning?

Is anything worthwhile doing?

As you step on the door of death, you turn back and see everything is meaningless.

Don't listen to me. I am just a shadow mist.

Introvert guide to Party

Party,if you get invited to one ,good for you. Party is where you get to eat unlimited food with myriad choice.What could go wrong Sir Keough? Free food,free drink and you are good to go. WRONG WONG WRONG. Party is where you sit like dumbfuck for 30 minutes or more trying to strike a conversation with strangers. Some considered this as 3rd level of hell. So here is an introvert guide to party.

1. Eat slowly, so you have something to do for the next 30 minutes

2. Drink slowly ,same reason with above.

3. Don’t have eye contact with other woman

4. Don’t sit beside married lady

5. Don’t sit beside single lady

6. Don’t sit beside a photo of single lady

7. Don’t sit when they play the song ‘Single Lady” by Beyonce

8. Crawl Sit as far as possible from other people

9. Don’t try to make any joke,you probably gonna screw it up anyway.

10. Resist the urge to talk to anyone

11. Smile at people passing by


Since I know most of your brain is smaller than mine, this is all.

Sabbatical without a Sabbatical

Disclaimer:Oh boy, this post gonna be super-like diary type blog,so if you feel regret reading this, contact me and I will give you free potato.

A sabbatical without a sabbatical. Is that even possible,logical or non-paradoxical at all? Is it possible for soul searching achieve it's objective despite the exclusion of the "searching" , what are to be found in the search and will the answer ever be found at all?

If you never ever been in dilemma where you are unsure of how to live,on how to be a  part of this world, how to have peace despite of all the negativity around you and surrounding you, well I am glad for you and may you never be imprison in this mental state.

I and some unfortunate few have to struggle to find the meaning of our life, the meaning behind our suffering and how to keep our sanity intact and be at peace with the past,presence and future .(but mostly the past)

If you watch "Honey and Clover",which is a delightful anime show that you wont be sorry to watch, this is the part Takemoto ride his bicycle across Japan. This is also the part where Forest Gump start running when Jenny left her.Or maybe your dad had done it or still doing it,that's why he is still in Burma or Africa or whatever with just a back pack and clothes on his body.

I could tell you with confident, my dear and dearest loyal reader, that I am not strong for soul searching. I love comfort. I love my bed and my pillow and my food and my books. I am not prepare to start a journey onto the unknown,(preferentially by foot),I am not fond of hardship, but if I have to give a destination, I say I might as well walk around Malaysia.

For me , the word soul searching is not appealing at all. I am not searching for soul or any ghost of dead person. What I am searching for is myself. Who is me. What am I. What am I doing with my life. How do I carry on at this point. When I embark on my quest to find myself,I keep searching for the answer of these question.

1.  The meaning of our life.
2. The reason behind our suffering. 
3.  How to end our suffering.
4. Everyone around me look so damn happy, why can't I be like that?

Midway through my soul searching,it occur to me that maybe :

I will never find my answer and I could live my whole life and still not found the answer.

I could smugly tell you that my journey start this morning and end at exactly 1.04 PM. (GMT +7 ,PDT 10 PM). The answer is for me and me alone. How I discover it and what my answer is won't be explicitly written on this monograph and indubitably remain a secret. This is my answer and my answer shall never be reasonably satisfactory for you or anyone else,am I right. You just have to do it the hard way by embarking on your own quest. ( Don't forget your fire-torch and knife)

LACKADAISICAL EULOGY FOR THE VIRGIN MIND

I guess I am closet anarchist
I never believe in law and justice,if I did,it stopped long time ago.
You think law could protect you?
Law only serves money and power.
Law corrupt.
I follow no law but my own.
I don’t give a damn about your law.
I am the master of myself and master of the world
And in my world,you are just piece of worthless shite,an unintelligent carbon compound, dispensable
and valueless.

Justice is illusion , championed without meaning,uphold blindly without real value.

Good men shy away when evil lurk in open.Atrocity in broad daylight goes unpunished.Thats how the world work lad,and what you gonna do about it?

Love Letter to the Dead

Enter a war and return a hero. The soldiers don't chase the glory, they are just doing something that need to be done,even thought they knew they going to die doing it.They die nameless as they fight nameless.

For the people whose country I cannot imagine how ashamed,how deep the sadness,or the severity of their pride shattered. To have a home yet destroyed and molested. To have a home yet brutalized and blatantly killed. Maybe the dead have the better mercy than the living.

Reagan was right. To use a nuclear weapon on another country is unthinkable. Vietnam War bothered me so much. How could you,how dare you, ask me to believe in humanity, to trust another person, when they constantly and consciously turn their back on unmitigated injustice? To see a grown man recounting the story how their friend die in the war is to see pain in its most raw true form.

They taste of food, the breath the air, feeling the solid ground beneath your feet,these privileges taken from the victim of our ignorance. The real is human is the guy standing non-stop for 12 hours with a manila card that spells ' Stop War". As real tears drop fall down my cheeks writing this, I stand crestfallen and broken-hearted to learn that no matter how much I cry,how many tears I shed,  am powerless to stop what already happened, what is happening and what going to happen in the future. Trapped in a world with no mercy and hypocrisy,how could I continue walking this earth and still call myself a man when I did nothing to rectify everything that is sick and wrong with this world? I guess speaking is best done through bullets.

Work Hard Mate

Just ask yourself
Why people work hard?
People work hard because they have ambition.

What is your ambition?

People who have ambition jump off the building from the bed and be highly over-productive.That's why they are so happy. They are doing their best

I want you,right now write your ambition on a piece of paper such as Osama Bin Laden birth certificate.

Osama Bin Laden's shoe when he was a baby.Good taste

Thanks for reading Apple Waffle. I'm  Keough and you are a great person.
I hope u know that and I believe u can achieve your ambition!

Pessimistically Reverse

Everyone need a pat on the back. Why not say
1.good job
2. you did great today
3. you work hard today,im proud of you
4. well done
5. u have a perky nipple
5. you did your best, you should be proud

you will lighten up that person, you will cheer him/her out. (don't apply to jew and half-jew, they don't need a pat on the back,don't encourage them to kill more...duh...your butt is so dumb my mangina facepalm 3times)

photo of my ex-wife to encourage you to follow my blog more often , you lazy cunt

Thanks for reading Apple Waffle, my name is Sir Keough ,and your dad has a perky nipple. (dont ask how I know this *toss binocular under the bed*)

Anguish,Really, You Want To Pin It On Me? I Que For Half An Hour

Whatever complain you have ,there is people in the world who suffer a hundred times more than you did.
Whatever you are facing, there are people who face far much much much much worse than you did.

Whenever you have a problem, there is usually a way around it. The solution is in the corner in front of you. You can't see it because complaints-induced cataract and sorrow-induced macular degenaration.

Humanity have survive and endure for like 8000 years or so (the number might be wrong,im just estimating the figure). Our ancestor have survive fire, earth, water , wind and nature. Humanity have solve whatever problems arised a thousands times maybe more,again and again. So whatever your problem, you can solve it.

People in other part of the world is facing extreme poverty, diseases and armed conflict,so you should be ashamed of yourself if you are crying over your problem.

I love you all. You are the best.